What I wanted most of all in the early days after my breast cancer diagnosis was to get back to normal. It felt as if some strange force had taken over my life, and I longed to be back as I was as if none of it had happened.
I remember walking down the street, and thinking that everyone I saw passing by was normal because they didn’t have cancer. I felt different. And my life felt out of control. This thing had happened to me out of the blue. What else could happen now? What I wanted most of all was to get back the familiar feeling of stability, that there was some sense of predictablity about life.